Anxiety and depression, it affects many people I know this because am one of these people. I myself am on anxiety medicine for this; I have something called anxiety attacks. It is no picnic at all!
I have tried many anxiety self help methods and some have worked, for example, there is the wearing of a rubber band on your wrist and snapping it when you feel anxiety occur. It works most of the time but sometimes you need more.
I have one particular anxiety symptom, which always lets me know when I will have an attack that is an intense pressure in my head. Sounds funny, but that is my warning to take my anxiety medication.
My doctor has diagnosed me with generalized anxiety disorder, which affects many people in this world. Most of them don't even know they have it; they just have the symptoms but think they are going crazy!
Treating anxiety is an ongoing process. It can take years to recover, if you ever do. There are many different types of anxiety disorders, one of which is anxiety social, this is where you feel you can't be around people. It causes you to tremble with fear and makes your heart race. These are a few of the symptoms.
My one plea to you dear readers is that if you have anxiety problems please contact your doctor. No you are not nuts! You need a doctor's help to deal with it. I have learned this the hard way. Be safe dear readers.
badlyricpolice posted a photo:
It's amazing what you remember that you just don't know you remember until you finally find something that reminds you.
Tonight I watched an old episode of Star Trek with some friends. Suddenly I remembered some of the Star Trek episodes I had watched as a child at GreyRaven's house.
My mother died of cancer when I was pretty young. My father would drop us off to go be with my mother in the hospital. After she died, my came for the support of his best friend, GreyRaven's father. We kids watched a lot of Star Trek to distract ourselves.
So when my (adopted) mother had to go in for spine surgery a couple weeks ago and I was freaking out about it, I couldn't handle the idea of losing my second mother, too. I know that one day it has to happen (unless I die first for some horrible reason), but hopefully I won't have to come to terms with all this until I'm more sure of myself.
A lot of the Star Trek episodes used to scare me. I was a really wimpy kid.
Stink Poop posted a photo:
You seem like you’re unstoppable now
You take love, and keep it all somehow
It feels like all I need is your help
I’m fading, alone all by myself
You say that, I’m stupid
Without you I’m useless
I’m bothered, you don’t even notice
I See Red - Uh Huh Her
I've been hiding from my emotions... so much so that I forgot what they even are. It's all coming out in anxiety. I've had panic attacks that result in me getting sick, rather violently, every day for the past week and a half. I'm dreading tomorrow because I know it's going to happen again. I don't know how much longer I can deal with this. I've never had anxiety this bad before. It's so freakin' powerful. I was almost reduced to tears at work today. I really can't do this anymore. I feel like I'm going to crack.
Even writing this out, its taken me about 20 minutes because I pause and zone out. I've snapped out of it three times already with tears in my eyes but don't remember it happening. I don't even feel sad, I just feel a knot in my stomach.
This picture is the best I can do to represent what I'm feeling. It was either this, or taking a picture of me putting my fist through a wall, which I have been trying not to do all night.
Ugh. I need a break.
Glass texture taken from James.
